To be cherished...

So last year was bad. Terrible. Emotionally scarring and tragic. I would love to erase 2009 from the boards....but then again, i don't. Everything that happened to me from December 2008 until now has been difficult, but it has SERIOUSLY had me introspective and i saw a lot of myself that i would not have seen before. I feel like after all that happened, i am finally back to being myself again. But, not the SAME self--more like Danae 2.0. I can recognize now unhealthy ways of thinking, and try and stop anxiety or panic attacks from taking over. Before, when i would get ridiculously angry over everything, i used to think crying was weak. That was because of the way i grew up with my dad. But now, i have the appropriate emotional responses when i need to.... instead of getting angry and going on a rampage when i am upset at something, i cry. normal response. Bad situations, but they have helped mold me into a healthier person. Silver lining, :).

I have also realized what i want out of a relationship. I am tired of the guys who are full of themselves, and just want to stick it into whatever they can. I am tired of the guys who don't treat women like they are humans with feelings. I am tired of guys who won't grow a pair of balls and DATE a chick, but instead, do everything that two people in a couple do, but say we're not dating. FUCK that. I am SO worth more than that. I am waiting until that respectable guy who will LOVE me shows. i know he is out there. I know i am worth it. and i am not going to settle anymore.

As Christina always says, "Fists held high!"

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