So. Men. I am beginning to think all the good ones are dead. Or gay. Or taken.
It is so difficult to put yourself out there to meet people. And once you do, you have no idea what this person is like, or what their past is, but you hope that they are a decent human being who will at least try and be kind, and not treat you badly. You'd hope that they would be open with you, and not treat you like a nagging little kid who won't leave you alone. You'd think they would have the decency to treat you like a human being, and not like a sex object. You'd think for all those guys who say they just want a normal girl that there would be "plenty of fish in the sea". But you see, those guys don't say what they want said normal girl for... and THAT is the problem i am running into. These guys who just want normal girls don't want relationships, and the guys who DO want relationships are so damn picky and rude that it makes me think i want to start dating chicks soon... no just kidding. But you see what i mean.
I am simply tired of putting myself out there and having guys just push me to the curb. I am so so SO tired of it. i have yet to meet a guy who just wants to get to know me and have a relationship... and when i do meet a nice guy, i hear things like i am still getting over my ex... and our relationship ended two years ago... seriously? why can't a guy recognize when he has something good in front of him?!? guys need to smarten the fuck up. cuz i am so done.
I feel like this picture above. So serene, so simple, so pretty, a picture you would want to know more about possibly... but all alone. Alone sitting in a HUGE open space, just staring at my own reflection, afraid to look up because i don't want to think of how alone i feel...
But i have to look at the bright side of things. i HAVE to. Because i am not alone. I have friends, many friends, who mean more to me than my family does sometimes. And i have God, and he carries us when we can't carry on on our own.
There is hope. There has to be.
There is hope, because you have a best friend whose been praying a good man into your life for years and years and years. I love your honesty and vulnerability lovey. God sees your heart. Seriously though, when I was sitting with you at Paneral the other day I was like, DAMN what guy wouldn't want to just go on fun dates and get to know this girl? It's been fun for me getting to know you. I love you so much!
ReplyDeleteit is so fun to get to know you.
ReplyDeleteyou are amazing.